May 19, 2006

yucky

sometimes I feel so insecure. I hate it. I wonder if Mike really loves me, I wonder if he loves me with as much intensity as I love him. I wonder if he thinks about other women and if wishes I looked like them. I wonder if he fell in love with me by default, like no one else was around or it didn't work out with the girl he really wanted, so he settled for me. I want to trust his love for me. This sucks.

May 2, 2006

You are mozart and I am Salieri.

You have always been beautiful...you have always been good. I covet the songs you write...I even covet the pain you have because of what it produces. Your music speaks to people. It blesses people. God speaks through you.