So dramatic

I just realized that I am possibly the most dramatic person on earth. To give you an idea of just how dramatic I am I decided to post random bits of things I have written over the years.

This is the first installment

"I see
no light. i see no hope. my world is black. Black black and still more
black. I want to lay down on the frozen ground. cold like my fingers,
cold like my heart. swallow me oh earth, until i am going going and
gone.

I remain yours respectfully,
meredith soul blackened by sorrow dinatale the first" 2004

PTSD

So, a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with Post traumatic stress disorder and clinical depression. I was in therapy for over a year and then I married mike and things seemed better. The sad thing is is that now for some reason the PTSD seems to be worse. I am hyper vigilant when I am out of the house. Driving stresses me out I feel out of control of my surrounding s and I feel like I want to cry. I hate it. Seriously hate it. I don't know what to do to help it either because I am on medication. blah....sometimes I hate life.