Feb 21, 2007


Today I am hopeless. Today I look at myself and cringe. Today I want to stop the pain. I want to go to sleep and not wake up.

Feb 15, 2007

Valentine's Day

I will be honest. Valentine's Day was always so annoying to me. I mean, a bunch a pressure to have a special someone and if you don't you a pretty much excluded from the entire holiday. Sure, I gave and received cards when I was a kid. My dad always gave me a present. But pretty much February 14th had been a huge reminder that I was alone and frankly, it hurt. ..until Mike. Now Valentine's day means something to me. Now I love Valentine's day. I love the colors red and pink together. I love lacy hearts and chocolate and flowers. I love romantic gestures and thoughtful gifts. I love Mike and what I am experiencing now that he is in my life.

Feb 10, 2007

The rainbow bridge

Please bear with me as I indulge in my pain a while longer and post this cheesy yet incredibly sad poem that makes me cry everytime I read it.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Feb 8, 2007


Fable was a cute, little, ball of baby soft gray fluff. He loved Figgy Pudding and he loved to snuggle with him.He copied off of him and tried to do everything he did....it was funny cause he was so small.

I got Fable from a disgusting apartment in New Jersey when I responded to an ad about two rescued half persian half russian blue kittens. I am glad I rescued him from that craphole of a place. When I brought him home he walked right out of the carrier and tried to be friends with the figs. It was the only time I ever heard Figgy hiss. But soon Figs loved the little kitten too.

At first I didn't think Fable's face was that cute. It seemed kind of pointy caused I was used to persian faces.But then I thought it was the cutest face ever. I kissed his little face right before they took him away forever.

I honestly can't believe that I only had him for alittle over 3 months. He seemed to be a part of our family for longer than that. I really miss him and I still cry sometimes...like right now.

Poor widdle kit...I love you and miss you and I know Jesus is holding you for me. I can't wait to snuggle you again.