yucky

sometimes I feel so insecure. I hate it. I wonder if Mike really loves me, I wonder if he loves me with as much intensity as I love him. I wonder if he thinks about other women and if wishes I looked like them. I wonder if he fell in love with me by default, like no one else was around or it didn't work out with the girl he really wanted, so he settled for me. I want to trust his love for me. This sucks.