Mike has always called me fussy. He has also made up nicknames that are variations of the word fuss. The most commonly used one is Fussa. Today I am completely fussy. My body aches and everything is annoying me. I feel discontent and am going through my wanting a dog phase.What is my problem? Anyway, I am not allowed to have a dog. I just want to know what this sickness is that keeps thinking,"this time I can do it". Like I said, I can't have a dog so the point is moot but it still bothers me.
I am fussy cause I don't want to feel like I am always discontent. I want to choose to be happy but right now it is hard. I want to eat but I want to be thin. I want to stay home all the time but I also get bored and want to work. We also need the money. I want a baby but I cannot have one. I love my garden but I am impatient for the flowers to bloom. I love who Mike is but I want him to be perfect. I love being in Godspell but I am also annoyed by it.
I hate this post but I am gong to puplish it anyway.
2 comments:
For me, sometimes I can think, "Once this or that happens then everything will be awesome" when in reality, every phase of life--whether a new job, new relationship, new show you're in or whatever--comes with a whole new set of problems...
Luckily, they do ebb and flow and sometimes the problems recede and we find ourselves in moments of true bliss.
I hope that many of those moments of bliss find their way to you...And I love when you post, btw--so thank you for publishing (even if it annoys you)!
No offense to Mike, but he makes up horrible nicknames. The one he had for his sister is the absolute worst.
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